
Art works, like children, are meant to go out into the world and lead a life of their own. They give pleasure and meaning in ways beyond the artist’s control. I have heard that some artists accumulate their own work over time. I know of a fellow who left a whole barn full of his own stuff when he died. Yikes. Not this girl. Virtually every piece I’ve completed has flown off out the door eventually.
However…my collection of Moments is a rare exception. This week I hauled them up from the basement. They live in a battered blue Rubbermaid tub. I haven’t opened the lid in four years, and most of the work inside is nearly 20 years old.
What are Moments? Moments are little sculpted worlds. They celebrate moments of connection I’ve experienced, mostly with people, but sometimes with places or prayerful feelings. They are collections of little tokens and castoffs. Beads and buttons and ribbons. Small photos that make your heart sing or break. Swatches of fabric. Bits of text. Toys. Little evidences of victory or failure or survival. A piece of coal you pick up after your friend tells you she has cancer, and you wind silk thread around it, knotting it like a whispered invocation.

Some of the people are gone out of my life, and some are truly gone. And can we ever really go back to a place, or back to an old feeling?
Whew. The past gets heavy, man.
All these hundred-odd Moments appeared in a show called Moments over 15 years ago. My friend Jan Henrikson had photos on exhibit in the same space. My man Cloudy made these high, arc-shaped tables to put the little Moments on. The space was all hardwood and old brick. My kids were there. It was a nice night. The whole show itself was momentary — a one-evening exhibition.
And since then the boxes have accompanied me through life, birds that won’t leave the nest. Some artworks are too personal or unwieldy to sell. They just wouldn’t work in someone else’s living room. I sort through the Moments again, stacking and remembering. Cloudy hovers, bends to study these little chapters of experience, some of which we’ve shared.
In hauling up the Moments, I thought I might be ready to let them go. I do manage to weed a couple dozen that no longer resonate. But the rest I put back into their tub and close the lid. Next time, maybe.
